What you say

Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you

love me if you dare

I just watched Garden State on my office computer (on office hours!) and i must say, i am completely absolutely blown away by this film. It's about how often we struggle to find something in our lives, when there is nothing.

The main character talks alot about the apathy of humans as we enter our lives, and he is seen as being uncaring and without aim. He meets Sam (Natalie Portman) and he rediscovers himself.

The main charater Braff is a struggling actor that is waiting for his big break in movies. He also waits tables at a viet restaurant during his free time. He pushed his mother down the stairs when he was young and as a result hasnt felt any significant emotion since, mainly as a result of the medication he's been plied with by his estranged father.

When finally, the song Let Go by Frou Frou finally plays, I am filled with goosebumps and really the song just blows me away. It's strange, how we need such films to teach us life lessons.

The tragedy of humanity

is that education is teaching us to sell our souls to the highest bidder, rather than building up our souls.

Those days

I take another fall take a chance take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat, but that's nothing new.

What lyrics man. I was just surfing some good videos on mtv when i came across this gem by onerepublic. Well this was very much the anthem of screeching angst boys i think 1 or 2 years back, and till now its still one of the best songs to emo to. lovely.

I kinda enjoy this blogging where no one reads it. It's like that diary that i made except this totally works!

I had an epiphany the other day regarding careers, and that is that most of the jobs available today will not exist in probably 5-10 years. SUre, the traditional powerhouses such as accountancy and law and medicine will always be around (even more so given how ridiculous the amount of money there is in these industries) but lets face it, there are more and more ways for people to live the life they want and still pay the bills.

my (current) hero is that of Michael Swaim and Dan O'Brien who despite no discernible skills they create a rather decent living by doing internet comedy. Now if you told your parents that 10 years ago, they would break down laughing and then told you to get a life and stop wasting their trust fund.

See, the future rocks.

monday madness

It's monday again, and im staying in the staff room, preparing for class. I guess its really quite an awesome job that I have and i should be thankful for it. I mean, i could just as likely be stuck in a shitty 8-5 with no interest, no prospects, and no money. At least now the $$ is good.

W can't come for seychelles. Damnit, I was really looking forward to that with her. Well, i'll wait.

I can do the tuition scheme :D

genesis

I guess it’s a fresh start for me. A new blog where I can blog with anonymity. The truth is, im not too fussed about supperclub. I don’t really like the whole “work at night” thing, and the money isn’t that great anyway. What can I do? I really need $ and I need it fast.

I think that the parents have a really great influence on me despite me thinking that I have weaned off them because their disapproval is really starting to bug me.

Sometimes I dream that I win the lottery or toto or whatever getrichimmediately game that Singapore pools issues out. Then I dream of the riches that that money can bring for me. Sigh, it seems so ridiculous. Like im a reasonably educated man. I go to church. I have a loving girlfriend and family. I have a strong support of friends. But still, I yearn for the comforts of $. I am horrible.

Shawn’s birthday is coming right up this Saturday, and sometimes I really admire the carefree nature of his life. Like everything just rolls out so smoothly for him. He wants to drive and mommy buys a second hand mini cooper for him. He goes to LSE to do law. He has an awesome girlfriend where he and she are like pseudo-married already.

I guess its true that we see what we don’t have. Fuck, I hate seeing my own flaws.

I miss you, W. I love you