genesis

I guess it’s a fresh start for me. A new blog where I can blog with anonymity. The truth is, im not too fussed about supperclub. I don’t really like the whole “work at night” thing, and the money isn’t that great anyway. What can I do? I really need $ and I need it fast.

I think that the parents have a really great influence on me despite me thinking that I have weaned off them because their disapproval is really starting to bug me.

Sometimes I dream that I win the lottery or toto or whatever getrichimmediately game that Singapore pools issues out. Then I dream of the riches that that money can bring for me. Sigh, it seems so ridiculous. Like im a reasonably educated man. I go to church. I have a loving girlfriend and family. I have a strong support of friends. But still, I yearn for the comforts of $. I am horrible.

Shawn’s birthday is coming right up this Saturday, and sometimes I really admire the carefree nature of his life. Like everything just rolls out so smoothly for him. He wants to drive and mommy buys a second hand mini cooper for him. He goes to LSE to do law. He has an awesome girlfriend where he and she are like pseudo-married already.

I guess its true that we see what we don’t have. Fuck, I hate seeing my own flaws.

I miss you, W. I love you