The end of it all

Oh well, it's my last week as a teacher and i'm really quite glad. It's been somewhat of a grind and i'm glad its over. Wendy is still slacking around in bed so its all good:D

I have decided, that i'm gonna pia like a motherfucker for uni. I will be part of the rat race!



Hahahahahaha.

A moment in time

http://lens.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/04/30/readers-11/


This is just beautiful. Its a project started by the NYtimes where they got readers all around the world to upload their image on their website and then a giant montage of pictures was created. I mean really, its just beautiful. It shows the beauty of humanity, the fragility of life and the celebration of it all. I can't save the picture(cause the java doesnt allow me to), so please, click on it and look.

Fornicating Lilys

I hate feeling helpless. I think that's the worse part of being where I am now, where so many factors are out of my control. I really don't like it.
The ruthlessness of this world sometimes really crushes me.

I learnt a new word a few days ago after reading "The Geography of Bliss" by Eric Weiner.
The word is

Mai Pen Lai

Now, Mai Pen Lai is the thai word for never mind, meaning like "Take it easy, there's no need to get to the bottom of this mess.


Thai workers taking it easy as pictured above. Now, the proper way to say this phrase is to use a shrug of your shoulders to signify the relax-ness of your zen, chi-chi attitude to life. Caught in a Traffic jam? Mai Pen Lai. Got hit by stray bird droppings? Mai Pen Lai. No clue what/where you are waking up after a night with hot naked thai girls covered in day-glo paint? Mai Pen Lai.

See, life is good.

so what's in a name?

I like the phrase victorian whorehouse. It brings to mind a cabaret, a place where the imaginations were feasted upon and the people were free. Of course, the rancid bacteria filled vaginas were an eyesore but I must admit, I do like the whole idea





See, it captures your imagination. Knew it would.

Why nicholas sparks should just fucking die

How do you write a nicholas sparks movie?

Step 1:
2 pretty people.
(The Notebook)(Dear John)

(A walk to remember)


Step 2: Show that above mentioned pair of perfect human beings are forced to be separated by one thing or another.

Social Status



Parents


911




Step 3: They fall in love ANYWAY and make passionate love.












Insert a diabolical, left-field, senseless disease that limits their goddamn happy ever after and reduces a good story to a @#$%^-ing tear jerker, then go to the same poster guy that you know:








Last step:

Get all the cash in the world.

just die.

The lessons of history

Today, after much teachings to my classes, poring over history books and looking at ancient scrolls, I have come to one conclusion: That we don't learn any thing from history. At all.

Conflict after conflict, war after war, time after time we make the same same mistake. Kinda like our own existence anyway.

I like aluminium foil!

Teacher Student Relationships

I think that when I do leave River Valley, I would like to have achieved some stuff.

1. Have learned how to speak confidently to the kids.
2. Learn to be calm, cool and efficient in projecting ideas to them.
3. Have impacted their life such that they become better people.
4. $.

we are but mirrors of insecurity/ in a never ending pantomine

our resistance

is love, as always.

i think that what I truly want to do with my life is to write. And I want my story to be great.

phlue

I'm tired. Really i am. This life is really starting to take a toll on me. I'm really sick and tired of trying to entertain the kids for so long day after day. The flu bug is really destroying me and I can't stop sniffling like a tap. help help.
W got an A for one of her mods. Great congrats to her, though I really think she can exercise better time management. oh well, enjoy it we shall :D
I'm going to driving lesson now. I've been driving lessoning for so long. Fuck.

God

I think I'm finding god again. At least, I hope I am.

Help me lord, I need you.

What you say

Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you

love me if you dare

I just watched Garden State on my office computer (on office hours!) and i must say, i am completely absolutely blown away by this film. It's about how often we struggle to find something in our lives, when there is nothing.

The main character talks alot about the apathy of humans as we enter our lives, and he is seen as being uncaring and without aim. He meets Sam (Natalie Portman) and he rediscovers himself.

The main charater Braff is a struggling actor that is waiting for his big break in movies. He also waits tables at a viet restaurant during his free time. He pushed his mother down the stairs when he was young and as a result hasnt felt any significant emotion since, mainly as a result of the medication he's been plied with by his estranged father.

When finally, the song Let Go by Frou Frou finally plays, I am filled with goosebumps and really the song just blows me away. It's strange, how we need such films to teach us life lessons.

The tragedy of humanity

is that education is teaching us to sell our souls to the highest bidder, rather than building up our souls.

Those days

I take another fall take a chance take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat, but that's nothing new.

What lyrics man. I was just surfing some good videos on mtv when i came across this gem by onerepublic. Well this was very much the anthem of screeching angst boys i think 1 or 2 years back, and till now its still one of the best songs to emo to. lovely.

I kinda enjoy this blogging where no one reads it. It's like that diary that i made except this totally works!

I had an epiphany the other day regarding careers, and that is that most of the jobs available today will not exist in probably 5-10 years. SUre, the traditional powerhouses such as accountancy and law and medicine will always be around (even more so given how ridiculous the amount of money there is in these industries) but lets face it, there are more and more ways for people to live the life they want and still pay the bills.

my (current) hero is that of Michael Swaim and Dan O'Brien who despite no discernible skills they create a rather decent living by doing internet comedy. Now if you told your parents that 10 years ago, they would break down laughing and then told you to get a life and stop wasting their trust fund.

See, the future rocks.

monday madness

It's monday again, and im staying in the staff room, preparing for class. I guess its really quite an awesome job that I have and i should be thankful for it. I mean, i could just as likely be stuck in a shitty 8-5 with no interest, no prospects, and no money. At least now the $$ is good.

W can't come for seychelles. Damnit, I was really looking forward to that with her. Well, i'll wait.

I can do the tuition scheme :D

genesis

I guess it’s a fresh start for me. A new blog where I can blog with anonymity. The truth is, im not too fussed about supperclub. I don’t really like the whole “work at night” thing, and the money isn’t that great anyway. What can I do? I really need $ and I need it fast.

I think that the parents have a really great influence on me despite me thinking that I have weaned off them because their disapproval is really starting to bug me.

Sometimes I dream that I win the lottery or toto or whatever getrichimmediately game that Singapore pools issues out. Then I dream of the riches that that money can bring for me. Sigh, it seems so ridiculous. Like im a reasonably educated man. I go to church. I have a loving girlfriend and family. I have a strong support of friends. But still, I yearn for the comforts of $. I am horrible.

Shawn’s birthday is coming right up this Saturday, and sometimes I really admire the carefree nature of his life. Like everything just rolls out so smoothly for him. He wants to drive and mommy buys a second hand mini cooper for him. He goes to LSE to do law. He has an awesome girlfriend where he and she are like pseudo-married already.

I guess its true that we see what we don’t have. Fuck, I hate seeing my own flaws.

I miss you, W. I love you